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Saturday, March 24, 2007

gettin more n more tired each dae... as each dae passes by i'm feelin veri tried nt jus physically but emotionally too.... but y can't i jus find some1 to talk about it ever1 alwaes seem so busy 2 even chat wid me... i find myself gettin harder n harder 2 smile like usual.. if i had smile of 20 times each dae than got more than 10 times r fake smiles.. haha.. but strange no 1 found out about it... got in contact wid moi pri school friend 2 daes ago... n get 2 know tat the siew foon i know in moi pri sch is the michelle ying hated.... tis make moi mood worst even though i never tok 2 siew foon 4 8 years already but we r still friends i dun realli wish things 2 go worst wid her n ying... but than everytime i chatted wid ying she alwaes sound full of hatred about her.... n nw we can't even chat properly.. wat ying sae jus nw make me feel tat she doesn't trust me any more... if time could realli goes back could everythin be e same again?? cause i stand it anymore.. i'm on e verge of breakin down... every1 is born alone n came 2 tis world alone... as time passes by... they will die alone too.. if no matter wat we do we will end up being alone than y is there a need 2 have friendship n love where it will trouble us... isn't it better 2 be alone where on 1 else could hurt u?? maybe it better 4 me tis way...

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3:35 PM

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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

arh... i hated e feelin i have 4 u nw... if i ever knew tis will happen i will never had let things go on further... cause maybe it better 2 e 2 of us 2 stay as the same in e past than nw... than i wun had 2 bare those mixed feelin.. haix... if onli time can turn back... but if time reali turn back will i make back e same mistake????

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12:49 AM

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Saturday, March 17, 2007

haha... went to chalet wid zi jun, boon huat, wee kiat, jun jie, jo n ying*she onli came on e second dae* on 14-15 of march... actualli e chalet last 3 daes but i jus went 4 e first 2 dae.. n i found moiself doin a lot of 'first time' things in e chalet.. moi first time slpin over nite in a friend chalet. first time slpin in a room wid all guys n i'm e onli gurl, first time playin go kart in escape n first time drink wine n still 40% alcohol de wor.. luckily got add other drink in it eg, HL milk, F&N orange n cranberri syrup*which taste like medicine* n of course i end up bein blur blur de after drinkin it... jo end up drunk n her bf came n fetch her home at about 4am++ veri pro right?? haha.. than e whole group of us got addicted in playin mahgong lo... but happy times alwaes passes quickly.. sob sob.. i didn't play enough.. n too bad we didn't take a lot of pic but will upload e pics we took when i got it from boon huat... hope there will be more chalet in e near future....

than when i got home a surprise was gave to me by moi poly friends.. moi exam result came out on e wed!! luckily i passed all moi subject even thought i tot i will at least fail 2 of it.. but compare 2 e last time moi result had deproved... sob.. sob.. HOWEVER wat is impt 2 me is tat i had pass all my subject haha...

PIC!!!!

*moi n jo took tis when we had nth 2 do.. jo is e 1 hu edited e pic*

*second dae of chalet... veri sleepy wor.. cause onli slp less than 2h on e first dae nite*

*them playin cards... shhh.... dun tell them tat i took e pic secretly*

*mahgong!! played by moi boon huat jun jie n wee kiat*

*Cheers!! moi first wine n jo's de e maggie mee... haha...*

*e wine we drank... vodka.. n it 40% de wor... zi jun buy de..*

*another pic taken when we got nth 2 do in e first dae nite usin e mirror*

*advertisin mayou.. haha actualli it doesn't taste gud..*

*me in jo sunglasses.. haha...*

*2 sleepy head jun jie e 1 huggin pillow n wee kiat e 1 hu put his hand on his eyes*

*haha... boon haut ackin like he is suckin somethin too on his mouth*

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1:04 AM

``like miee for miee -- // * -nobody's perfectt-

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

got tis info from wang quan yu le...

the horoscope for gurls which being wid boy will bein them bad luck for year 2007...
*worst will be the first one the least worst is the last one*
btw the show onli show five horoscope

1. Scorpio (decision)
gurl have 2 do careful dun let boys change ur decision cause their decision will lead ur situation to a worst stage.

2. Pisces (work)
boy will affect ur work like interupt u while u r workin or accidently destroy ur work or when they recommend u 2 change job.. better dun listen 2 them cause they will onli brin u a job worst than ur current 1...

3. Cancer (fortune)
Being wid boys will let u lost ur fortune like can't strike 4d toto or even worst lost money..

4. Virgo (mood)
Boy tend to affect ur mood n made u go into bad mood easily..

5. Aquarius
I didn't get 2 hear it cause they started form the least worst 2 e worst.. so i missed it... onli know it aquarius cause they wrote it in e board...

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2:22 AM

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

haix.... tis sound stupid... but i keep havin sleepless nite... i jus can't seem to fall aslp.... arh... i dun feel tried at all... it 2.07am now... but i stuck here bored n energanic.. i dun feel like slpin at all... i'm jus nt sleepy.... haix.... sian... wat should i do.......

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2:05 AM

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