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Saturday, March 24, 2007

gettin more n more tired each dae... as each dae passes by i'm feelin veri tried nt jus physically but emotionally too.... but y can't i jus find some1 to talk about it ever1 alwaes seem so busy 2 even chat wid me... i find myself gettin harder n harder 2 smile like usual.. if i had smile of 20 times each dae than got more than 10 times r fake smiles.. haha.. but strange no 1 found out about it... got in contact wid moi pri school friend 2 daes ago... n get 2 know tat the siew foon i know in moi pri sch is the michelle ying hated.... tis make moi mood worst even though i never tok 2 siew foon 4 8 years already but we r still friends i dun realli wish things 2 go worst wid her n ying... but than everytime i chatted wid ying she alwaes sound full of hatred about her.... n nw we can't even chat properly.. wat ying sae jus nw make me feel tat she doesn't trust me any more... if time could realli goes back could everythin be e same again?? cause i stand it anymore.. i'm on e verge of breakin down... every1 is born alone n came 2 tis world alone... as time passes by... they will die alone too.. if no matter wat we do we will end up being alone than y is there a need 2 have friendship n love where it will trouble us... isn't it better 2 be alone where on 1 else could hurt u?? maybe it better 4 me tis way...

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