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Monday, April 30, 2007

haha... went 2 c e show le... it veri veri nice.. wonderin wan 2 buy e vcd ma?? hmmm... haha... cause i realli love e show... ying n ra even cried in e show... i found e songs they sing in a movie "maria" n "miss you much" nw findin e lyric for it... haha... it a veri touchin n sweet story.. n i feel e story do happen in e world we r livin even though jessica sae it jus a show it will nt happen in tis world..

will one of e song "miss you much" into moi blog later... got time listen it k?? if i'm nt wrong it actualli a eng song...

thinkin of changin moi name 2 yukina.. y?? cause i have enough of people keep saein wrong moi name... so decided 2 change in 2 somethin easy 2 read n is sweet... but still thinkin la.. cause i also like e name arieta... haha... so if u read tis post le.. pls give me ur comment k?? on which name ish better.. yukina or arieta???

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Thursday, April 26, 2007

93 posts le... ever since last year when i started 2 blog 7 more 2 go n it will be a 100 post le... haha... quite fast wor.. but if i'm nt wrong i start bloggin since 16/5/06.. comin a year too.. i never knew i would last it 4 so long... when startin i started tis blog jus 2 find a place 2 vent moi anger n dun intend 2 let any1 know tis blog n nw 2 e blog tat i like n even started editin all template to make it e nicest n make it nicest tat i could even though i know it nt so perfect nw... but so many memories flow back 2 me as i read all e posts... e gud once n also sad once... suddenly felt tat times passes veri fast n things often happen in ways tat no one could predict... nw i jus hope tat none of moi friends will ever leave me again... all of u r impt 2 me...

p.s: haha... donno y i feel tat e endin part sound a bit weird but i do mean wat i sae...

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3:46 PM

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

haix..... hated comin 2 sch for bio lecture... jus think if u had 2 listen for 5h of lesson on a same subject in a dae n e next dae ur first 2h of e lesson is e same subject again.... tat is a sufferin lo... n tat wat moi timetable is 4 mon n tue... mon first 3h is bio lecture n tut than e last 2h of e dae is bio lab... than on tue moi first 2h is bio lecture!!!!! arh!! torture!!! than nw havin moi 4h break haix... than go for lab at 6-8pm... haix... can't they shift it up... it wastin moi time lo to have tis 4h at sch n can't do anythin... no friendster, no youtube, no msn, no vcd.... sob sob.. so e onli thing tat i can do ish 2 come here n blog...

kk... enough of all tis complain... found moiself complainin a lot in tis few daes... to all moi friends tat had hurt their ears due to it.. haha... i'm sorri... dun worry e cheerful mei wei is back... i'm mt goin 2 keep moiself in bad mood... nth will change even i'm in moi bad mood.. haha... "mus smile than tat like e mei wei i knew" i can't rmb ish it ra or jo hu told me tis le... but i realli glad she sae it 2 me... it realli brighten up moi day... thanks... (^__^)

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Monday, April 23, 2007

forget wat i sae ytd... i was ackin too emo le... i know even by saein tis wat happen ytd wun change... i think a lot about it le... if tat wat u wan i will jus let it be like tis... bein emotional also make me feel veri tired... i'm too tired le... too tired 2 even care about it anymore.... let jus place everythin behind n take it tat we had never been in contact in a first place.....

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

no matter it a friend or stead as long as he a boi n u started tokin about sex to them thing wun be e same anymore is it??? i hated e feelin of you sayin till like i betrayed u... cause u r impt 2 me tat y i alwaes get hurt so easily but is it realli tat hard 2 understand it?? jus because we r friends does tat mean i wun get hurt because of u?? y sae those words 2 me when i sure u urself know tat those words r hurtful? even after tat when u know wat goin on y still msg those things tat once again hurt moi feelin?? am i bein so hard 4 u 2 understand? does thing could onli be understand through words? can't action or jus some simple jesture sae out wat i'm feelin?? i alwaes tot u understand me e most.. maybe i'm wrong.. i'm sorri...

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7:14 PM

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Friday, April 20, 2007

back wid moi postin... hmmm... bein more n more emo each dae as i go 2 sch... sian.... ever since fri sin leong like angry wid me n avoidin me... haix... i guess i'm jus too stress wid moi classes le... no feelin of studyin nw...

tok 2 daniel on wed nite in msn... haha cause i'm havin prob wid moi class than he is e onli 1 online at tat time so decided 2 ask him about his opinion.. hmmm... than donno y it tok ended up in moi love live again... hmmm... than he tell me i one dae will be able 2 find a guy tat will understand me n care 4 me.... haha i said tis " i dun believe in tis saein.. all tis jus onli sound nice 4 me but it nt goin 2 be true" haha.. than he ask y.. i wanted 2 ans he but than at tat time i need 2 go help moi mum than after tat when i come back he offline le.. so here is moi ans.. cause i dun believe in love... people come 2 tis world alone n leave alone so there isn't a need 2 have love.....

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2:40 PM

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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

moi year 2 live in poly started... haix... havin a veri sux timetable.. everydae six tan end sch onli wed a bit earlier end at 2pm.. than worst on tues end at eight... haix... ARH!!! realli hated it.. like tat i like veri hard 2 meet moi friends le... boon huat startin his three months attachment at jurong east soon.. *if i'm nt wrong it startin next week* hope when he start his attachment le still can meet him at least on e sat.. cause havin attachment is veri tirin de.. donno he would wanna meet us ma on e sat.. he may end up stayin at home restin.. haha.. cause tat y i did e last time when i jus went for moi attachment the first time.. BUT still hope can meet up wid all of u..

hmmmm...... puttin up e pic i took at sentosa... haha cause i didn't put it up e last time when i post...btw all w pic i put here could nt be found in moi friendster cause i feel veri sian if friendster de n moi blog de pic r e same..

me n huat in a garden filled wid flowers... haha... but wat boon huat hand doin???

haha.. wonder wat ying is doin??? btw is pic taken by huat nt me.. so ying if u saw it n u dun like it pls dun blamed me...

arh... didn't know moi pic was taken till boon huat sent me e pic a few daes later...

a cable car view... veri nice wor... haha.. i dun mind takin e cable car once more if i have e money sia...

the new upgraded musical fountain.. which even included real fireworks... hope 2 go watch it....

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1:56 PM

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Monday, April 09, 2007

"I may forget her voice n personality one dae. But i will alwaes remember tat i loved someone named saber"

tis sentence appeared in e anime "fate stay night" the last ep.. it a nice story but wid a endin tat i din realli like so i didn't burn it into vcd. jus saved it as a file in a dvd disc. 2dae nth 2 do n i decided 2 rewatch it again. everytime i watches tis anime tis sentence jus wun get off moi mind 4 quite some times.

e story goes as e main charactor shirou caught himself in a battle of 7 magician wid each of their own servant "a soul of a hero in ancient times being summoned out by the magician" the last standin magician of the battle could get an item name holy grail which will grant a wish to the magician n the servant. bein 1 of the 7 magician shirou accidently summoned out saber the strongest servant which also begin his battle for life n wish. but as times passes by shirou found himself lovin saber hopin to let saber live as a real human in his world he wishes 2 get the holy grail grew stronger. however in e end reality is alwaes cruel holy grail was actualli a item whiches uses other people lives as energy to grant it's owner wishes. knowinn tis shirou n saber decided 2 destroy it instead. hence the endin saber went back to her own time n world leavin shirou. as shirou friend n as 1 of e other 7 magician rin asked how is he after saber is gone n the sentence was how he replyed her. of course in between there still a lot of things happen like battle among e magician n servant n how shirou found himself fallan 4 saber..... but it veri hard 2 type all e thing down if any1 is interested in tis anime i could lent u guys e disc..

anyway i realli love wat he said. cause it hard lovin some1 tat u know he or she wun exist in ur world.

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9:01 PM

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

it had been so long since i last came in n post somethin.. even though i got came in n edit moi blog... moi year 1 attachment had finalli come 2 an end... one week more n i will be goin 2 year 2.. which mean more project n attachment n less holidae... sobsob... waa.. hate nursin due 2 tis.. i like goin attachment even though it tirin.. the whole process was fun n i alwaes learn i lot of thing in there.. BUT i hate tat they uses our holidae as our attachment period... it sad 2 c ur friends enjoyin holidae yet u had 2 go 2 work de...

kk... stop moi attachment thingy n down 2 others things.. sent 2 sentosa wid ying n huat last sat 31/3/07.. took a lot of pic... but most of them ish wid huat.. he still haven sent it 2 me... it was veri veri fun... haha... than ying n i agreed tat when our 21 bdae we r goin 2 book a hotel room in sentosa 2 celebrate wid our friends.. even though it still sound so far away as still got 2 years 2 go but i veri enger in it.. haha..... jus hope nth will changes any1 of us.. we still could be bestest friends.. so cause tat doesn't onli mean ying n me.. it mean jo, hui, ra, huat, jun too...

jus cut moi hair again.. due 2 moi hair keep pokin out like i never comb moi hair than go out le like tat... like i jus woke up from bed like tat... haix... hence moi hair got even shorter le... well.. it nt tat i dun like moi hair nw but it jus tat nw moi hair veri dry than i misses the days where moi hair is nice n smooth than when combin moi hair there no tangle in it.. n so nice 2 play wid moi hair e last time... nw dry dry de... well... no use complain in thing tat cannot be undone de...

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